well that went well !!!!

Well the last couple of weeks every thing went down hill and i went in to a mini depression, felt really low and i did not get any thing productive done.
I was worried about my oldest son because he has been in a relationship with some one in America and the person wants to come here to live, my oldest son has for weeks trying to sort out visa and such and he has not been sleeping making us all worried and stressed out just worrying about our sons state of mind, this in turn has made my bipolar kick in more, so not a good couple of weeks.
I have upped my meds and am just starting to feel a little bit better, but my plans for going out walking or dieting went out the window.
I also missed my beautiful nieces engagement party, i am ashamed to admit that i don't feel like i can cope in crowds of people, at my birthday party last year i was a wreck, i cryed and felt terrible and that was a small amount of family in a pub, i know i need to sort it all out and face my fears but the fear is so overwhelming, on a good note i joined a self confidence class with my sister there are only 3 other people there so its manageable and its every Friday, so i am taking baby steps in the right direction.

So here is to February, hoping that the rest of the coming months will get better and better.

EVERYBODY KNOWS ...
You can't be all things to all people.
You can't do all things at once.
You can't do all things equally well.
You can't do all things better than everyone else.
Your humanity is showing just like everyone else's.

SO ...
You have to find out who you are, and be that.
You have to decide what comes first, and do that.
You have to discover your strengths, and use them.
You have to learn not to compete with others,
Because no one else is in the contest of "being you."

THEN ...
You will have learned to accept your own uniqueness.
You will have learned to set priorities and make decisions.
You will have learned to live with your limitations.
You will have learned to give yourself the respect that is due,
And you'll be a most vital mortal.

DARE TO BELIEVE ...
That you are a wonderful, unique person.
That you are a once-in-all-history event.
That it's more than a right, it's your duty, to be who you are.
That life is not a problem to solve, but a gift to cherish.
And you'll be able to stay one up on what used to get you down.