Tuesday, 27 March 2012

Rules For Being Human

Rules For Being Human

1. You Will Receive A Body
You may like it or hate it, but it will be yours for the entire period this time around.

2. You Will Learn Lessons
You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called Life. Each day in this school, you will have the opportunity to learn lessons - you may like the lesson or think them irrelevant and stupid.

3. There Are No Mistakes, Only Lessons
There is a process of trial and error; experimentation. The 'failed' experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiment that ultimately 'works'.

4. A Lesson Is Repeated Until It Is Learned
A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.

5. Learning Lessons Does Not End.
There is no part of Life that does not contain its lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.

6. 'There' Is No Better Than 'here'.
When your 'there' has become a 'here', you will simply obtain another 'there' that will again look better than 'here'.

7. Others Are Merely Mirrors Of You.
You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.

8. What You Make Of Your Life Is Up To You.
You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

9. Your Answers Lie Inside You.
The answers to Life's questions lie inside you. All you need do is look, listen and trust.

10. You Will Forget All This.

11. You Can Remember It Whenever You Want

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Friday, 23 March 2012

Thursday, 1 March 2012

still feeling blah

Still feeling so very tired, i wake up each day feeling like i can go back to bed and sleep the day away, but i dont, i have my coffee then push my self to put the washing on or wash the floor.
I keep trying to do things even if its only the little things i can do, i think the worse thing is the guilt, i feel guilty for feeling this way, i feel guilt because i dont want to move and i so want to feel better in my self.
some days i feel like i want to step out side my body so my spirit can have a rest from the crazy thoughts, the parniod thoughts and the songs that goes round my head all day long. my body is also tired my joints aches and the
hidradenitis that hurts and never heals up, it all seems never ending and i feel like i could rest for a long time.

Saturday, 11 February 2012

advice to take or leave. :)

A bunch of advice to take or leave. :) Found it on a friend's wall.

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the
ultimate antidepressant.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Talk to God about what
... is going on in your life.
3. When you wake up in the morning
complete the following statement, 'My purpose is to__________ today. I am
thankful for______________'
4. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is
manufactured in plants.
5. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan
salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
6. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
7. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, issues of the past, negative
thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the
positive present moment.
8. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college
kid with a maxed out charge card.
9. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
10. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
11. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
12. You are not so important that you have to win every argument. Agree to
13. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
14. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey
is all about.
15. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
16. Frame every snowballed disaster with these words: 'In five years, Will
this matter?'
17. Forgive everyone for everything.
18. What other people think of you is none of your business.
19. God heals everything - but you have to ask Him.
20. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
21. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will.
Stay in touch!!!
22. Envy is a waste of time. You have everything you need.
23. Each night before you go to bed, complete the following statements: I
am thankful for__________. Today I accomplished_________.
24. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
25. When you are feeling down, start listing your many blessings. You'll be
smiling before you know it.

Wednesday, 8 February 2012

well that went well !!!!

Well the last couple of weeks every thing went down hill and i went in to a mini depression, felt really low and i did not get any thing productive done.
I was worried about my oldest son because he has been in a relationship with some one in America and the person wants to come here to live, my oldest son has for weeks trying to sort out visa and such and he has not been sleeping making us all worried and stressed out just worrying about our sons state of mind, this in turn has made my bipolar kick in more, so not a good couple of weeks.
I have upped my meds and am just starting to feel a little bit better, but my plans for going out walking or dieting went out the window.
I also missed my beautiful nieces engagement party, i am ashamed to admit that i don't feel like i can cope in crowds of people, at my birthday party last year i was a wreck, i cryed and felt terrible and that was a small amount of family in a pub, i know i need to sort it all out and face my fears but the fear is so overwhelming, on a good note i joined a self confidence class with my sister there are only 3 other people there so its manageable and its every Friday, so i am taking baby steps in the right direction.

So here is to February, hoping that the rest of the coming months will get better and better.

You can't be all things to all people.
You can't do all things at once.
You can't do all things equally well.
You can't do all things better than everyone else.
Your humanity is showing just like everyone else's.

SO ...
You have to find out who you are, and be that.
You have to decide what comes first, and do that.
You have to discover your strengths, and use them.
You have to learn not to compete with others,
Because no one else is in the contest of "being you."

THEN ...
You will have learned to accept your own uniqueness.
You will have learned to set priorities and make decisions.
You will have learned to live with your limitations.
You will have learned to give yourself the respect that is due,
And you'll be a most vital mortal.

That you are a wonderful, unique person.
That you are a once-in-all-history event.
That it's more than a right, it's your duty, to be who you are.
That life is not a problem to solve, but a gift to cherish.
And you'll be able to stay one up on what used to get you down.

Friday, 6 January 2012


IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).

I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.

I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.

I would have talked less and listened more.

I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.

I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.

I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.

I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.

I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.

I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.

I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.

I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.

Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.

When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, "Later. Now go get washed up for dinner." There would have been more "I love you's." More "I'm sorry's."

But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute...look at it and really see it .. live it .and never give it back. Stop sweating the small stuff.

Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what.

Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.

Let's think about what God HAS blessed us with. And what we are doing each day to promote ourselves mentally, physically, emotionally. I hope you all have a blessed day.

A new year

Well its the start of a new year,christmas was a lovely afair this year, all though i was still stuck in the kitchen, cooking party food that never got eaten that much, and i only had small tipples now and again, in fact only twice did alcohol pass my lips and both times i regreted it the next day, and i never even had that much.
Santa brought me cupcakes kitchen things, crystal necklace and purfume oh and 2 books one being a pink bible and the other a bipolar work book lol what a mixture but so me darlink!! teehee.
This year im trying to loose a stone of weight what crept up on me when i started my meds when i was not looking, but which i cant deney as my lovely jeans no longer fit and i wobble when i walk, which is not the look anybody wants, i also want to get fitter and am planning long walks with my hubby and dogs and getting my old bike out the shed dust away the cobwebs from it and hopfully ride the local bike tracks.
I know its going to be hard as the docter told me weight loss will be hard on the meds i am on but i gotta try as hard as i can and hopfully things will pop back into place ^^ .
The last couple of months i have been feeling good and i know its down to the meds, im doing more things around the house too and i want to get back into doing the garden in the spring, planting veg and a few flowers with my hubbys help of course.
So for now roll on to spring time and hopfully a fabby 2012 ..

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

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Things i have learned

I've learned that we don't have to change friends,If we understand that friends change.

I've learned that something that you do in an instant, can give you heartache for life
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words, it may be that last time you see them.

I've learned that we are responsiable for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude, or it controls you
I've learned that my best friend and I , can do anything or nothing and still ahve a good time.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you are down, will be the one who helps you get up.

I've learned that sometimes when i am angry i have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them too, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of expirences you've had and what you learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.

I've learned that it isin't always enough to be forgiven by others, but sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love eachother. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love eachother.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secrect, it may change you life forever.

I've learned that sometimes the people that you love most in lfe, are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that you can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, and the rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much i care, some people just dont care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and just seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in life, but who you have that counts.

I've learned that you can keep going, long after you think you can't.

I've learned that their are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that even when you feel you have no more to give, a friend cries out and you find the srenght to help.

I've learned that our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced our lives, but we are responsiable for who we become

everybody wants happiness
nobody wants pain
but you can't have a rainbow
without a little rain

In your life you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again, but you do...